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Post by druid627 on Jan 19, 2015 0:06:27 GMT
to the new year 2008
things being the way they are, one could be tempted to say that this is where I am, and are fated to stay in this situation, in this frozen hell with no chance of escape. to which I say "well that might be as it is- or as it is not but this is not the place that I intend to rot!" where and why I know not, but this isn't the time to go off and gallivant into the realm of rhyme
in the near distant future things are falling in line and I plan to grab a hold on this life of mine put it back upon the path from which it fell I know it won't be easy, but nothing worthwhile is I know there might be some who say I've gone amiss but this is what I must do for myself,to go and regain the pieces of my life I've lost, to try and stop the pain no-one can't stop the pain, but maybe convert it to joy it will mean being straight, no more time to be coy nor for obfuscation. Some may think it cruel but the time is long past to be thought a fool if judged a bastard,sinner or saint- 'tisn't for me to tell but it is long past time to make my assent out of hell!
mickey
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Post by druid627 on Jan 19, 2015 0:13:52 GMT
Valentines,08
as things progresses in this so called life for a second time I find I'm without a wife this doesn't give me pause nor does it give me cause to wallow in self loathing and pity left alone in this strange city this time there were many years filled with all the joys and tears a marriage brings into a life joy and laughter,pain and strife the latter never ending misery the former a distant memory this time the ending was long winded seen coming years before it ended and it came with great relief after all the years of grief now the time is drawing near to find that someone so dear to find a lover and a friend to allow myself to breathe again that is my simple,humble plea may the fates have mercy on me
mickey
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Post by druid627 on Jan 19, 2015 0:17:12 GMT
House and life,repairs needed
April has come again, and with it,comes the spring yet the winter won't let go tonight there is the threat of snow and while I'm snug and warm away from the weather's harm yet I feel deep in my bones a chill that won't leave me alone something that I can't name yet still affects me the same I know not the reason why it hits me out of season but as I sit in my chair it must be the chill air that makes me feel so daft damn,I gotta fix that draft
as soon as it warms up...
mickey
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Post by druid627 on Jan 19, 2015 0:22:40 GMT
Starting over...again
with everything that's going on the good byes,and hellos the meetings,not certain just how things will go 100,000 questions but answers are too few things that once came easy I find harder to do... words,once my stock in trade to woo a lady's heart seem to be too fleeting and I'm not sure where to start starting over after this long seems the hardest row but by my hearts compass I'll find the way to go
mickey
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Post by druid627 on Jan 19, 2015 0:25:27 GMT
Love's Fool
I'm not sure if what's here is a after effect of the beer this feeling that the shoe is gonna fall I try to see it plain but doing so brings pain and the crashing head first into a wall Being there is no good reason and this is not the season I try to put aside my doubts to kill them,not let them out the baseless things can't see the light of day I try my damnedest to be cool but more and more feel like a fool the blasted things just won't go away This is not a brand new feeling my heart bouncing off the ceiling while my mind goes crashing through the floor this happens just about every time my being feels love's chime reason seems to fly right out the door some might call me crazy but my heart isn't lazy just the favorite target of Cupid's tool call me a romantic,call me a cab fetch me some hope,just like a lab there is no help around for love's fool
mickey
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Post by squirt on Jan 19, 2015 2:06:47 GMT
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Post by druid627 on Jan 19, 2015 3:56:08 GMT
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Post by druid627 on Jan 19, 2015 4:01:03 GMT
C'est Tout
there are times that all is fair upon the battlefields of love and war then there are the many times that one should never keep the score
the time for appointing the blame is long since past,dead and gone now is the time for cutting losses saying goodbye and moving on
many times in the past I've ceded ground,for the sake of peace until my back was against the wall 'twas long past time for that to cease
now the end is in sight a few more weeks this farce is done where once there was a happy couple now there's simply a pair of one.... C'est Tout!
mickey
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Post by druid627 on Jan 19, 2015 4:08:09 GMT
Changes? you can have them....
with the way things are unfolding and the state of my life I need to get a solid anchor to find my footing in the strife that this upheaval is causing to figure out what stays and goes what to pack what to leave and for how long I'll lay low until my footing is regained if in fact it ever was now to where I need to be before I pull my hair and cuss
mickey
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Post by druid627 on Jan 19, 2015 4:15:09 GMT
-what is going on?
another attempt at happiness shot down by the whims of fate timing it seems is my curse either too early or too late something seems to go awry either with me or with them neither were on the same page and the congregation says "amen"
This must not be the place nor apparently the time why must it always seem the reasons are lost in the rhymes somewhere/when/how my life will get on track and I will finally find the pieces my life lack to make it complete to bring me back to the fold to return me unto the living before I'm too old
mickey
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Post by druid627 on Jan 21, 2015 4:47:01 GMT
I will survive{lyrics}
I sit here with another beer drowning in a pool of tears since you left that last fight tore me apart shattered what was left of my heart i'm feeling bereft
but I know I will survive I've took worse than you,I'm still alive nothing's gonna keep me down I'll get up from this fall I'll be standing strong and tall nothing's gonna keep me down
Knew you were trouble,still I took you in half way through,here we go again the more things change,the more they stay the same then the pain and the heartache start tearing my heart and my soul apart and I've no one but myself to blame
but I know I will survive I've took worse than you,I'm still alive nothing's gonna keep me down I'll get up from this fall I'll be standing strong and tall nothing's gonna keep me down
what do ya know here you come again tears on your face,begging to come in now the shoe is on the other foot you've made your bed,now you go lie life's a bitch,now go and die don't let the door hit you in the butt
but I know I will survive I've took worse than you,I'm still alive nothing's gonna keep me down I'll get up from this fall I'll be standing strong and tall nothing's gonna keep me down
repeat and fade....
mickey oct.50/2008
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Post by druid627 on Jan 21, 2015 4:51:22 GMT
Solution needed ...
I thought it was over,yet here it comes again the memories,heartache and the pain I just want all of this to end to get on with my life free of all of the strife and yet the conflict's coming around the bend
I thought it was over and done the years of staring down the gun sweaty trigger finger,don't you twitch started over many a time life returns to the rhyme the fates one and all are a bitch
what did I do and to whom in a prior life that beyond the tomb is dogging my footsteps one more time how many years must I pay for the thing that went that way and had misery replace sublime
The past is over there should it lay and many times I bade it stay it's acting like an ill trained pup just when things are nice and stable like a ghoul,throws me on the table rips me open,then begins to sup
this is a cycle I must break doing what it might take to get this monkey off my back I need a lover and a friend who can bring me back again and finally end this panic attack
mickey 10-51/08
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Post by druid627 on Jan 21, 2015 5:15:56 GMT
For Anne
Sitting back in my seat watching the snow softly fall remembering the past few days,as if it was a dream "Mesdames and Messieurs.." started the call that evening I departed.In my head it did seem I was headed in the wrong direction,but then again it did not I had had a grand adventure that was winding down and though I left my pain and sorrow home,I had not forgot just what awaited me when next my feet would hit the ground every word,taste,touch,texture.every tear,joy laugh and smile plans,dreams hopes and desires continually looped in my head sorted themselves chronologically and settled into your file with the date stamped on it to make it stand out amongst the dead memories in there,a monument as it was to life and options that doth abound for those who dare to rise above their toils and strife and learn to live again,to breathe deeply the air and know that they are loved,and can love.... so I'll say it over and over again by the grace of the gods above I'lm lucky to be able to call you friend
Mickey
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Post by druid627 on Jan 21, 2015 5:21:15 GMT
my winter beard...
Once again, winter has seemed to make it's presence known one can tell you this fact,by the beard I've grown by this scruffy mangled growth the weather I control some might say,after that line,that my sanity took a stroll and has yet to return.I can hear you scoff don't believe me ,just you wait 'til I shave if off by the next morning,10+ inches will abound upon what was recently snow barren ground but the accumulation is at a more modest pace as long as the beard resides upon my face, the snowfall is fairly light no more than 3-5" max more likely just a dusting; when it's gone,break out the axe Has been like this each and every year I've lived in the snow belt, the best thing is to leave it on,until it all does melt and the thaw arrives in the spring. I can shape it, dress it up and the winter is mild-I take off and you'll be invited to sup with the Donner party.Best lay in all sorts all sorts of supplies cus if it comes off, the most virulent flurries flies...
mickey
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Post by druid627 on Jan 21, 2015 5:25:32 GMT
Eunice
a little dishwater blonde full of figure,sweet of face even tempered,understanding always a fount of wit and grace reared in the depression you learned how to make do with the scant end of the larder and this did strengthen you for the path of life you chose now days,would not be taken the wonder to me right now is what dreams that were forsaken You oft did state that dad had only nine children, but you did not you had nine only children, each separate but but equal in your heart and thought the seeds of your demise were sown long before I was more than a dream but yet you did carry on the cycles more miraculous it does seem when put against modern thinking and customs of today that you put up with all of us for you were taught it was the way a mother must carry on though all and never to us did complain it wasn't in you to let us in on the things that caused you pain after 85 years you did depart and in your passing I do find not a dearth of compassion and love for you are still here in my mind and in my heart and though my tears do flow tis in joy their falling,all for you for I love and miss you so
Mickey 2-10/09
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