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Post by roadkill on Jan 20, 2017 1:11:34 GMT
02-16-2016, 04:51 AM
tonight as i slow my mind i am finding the events of the last 3 days has caught up to me or i caught up with them...not sure which..but my body is begging for sleep...so i will do as it wants and close the day out...shifting my thoughts to new beginnings miigweetch
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Post by roadkill on Jan 20, 2017 1:11:50 GMT
02-17-2016, 06:28 AM
tonight as i begin to slow my mind..i close my eyes and focus on the pictures flying by......as they begin to slow i can see a large rock on which i am standing...i look out and see a vast forest beneath me....i feel a warm wind rush over me and feel it gently touching my face...the smells of the pines and poplars tickle my nose...i take a deep breath and slowly exhale...not wanting to give up the familiar odors that are so fresh and calming to me...i look skyward and i can see a full moon with it's face looking straight into my eyes...there is a hush like none i have ever heard...there is only one star that shines brightly to the west...twinkling as if it were saying hello...it has a pale yellow halo around it...like the moon when it is about to snow...i can not take my eyes of that rare star...my heart begins fill up with the blood running through my body..it as warm and comforting feeling i have felt only a very few times in my life...my eyes begin to water but not because of sadness but from the joy i am feeling..i am finally able to turn away from the star and look to the east..i can see the sun sleeping below the horizon..getting ready to start a new day..my eyes are heavy now and soon i will be in that other realm where my mind stops and finds rest..i am thankful for another gifted day
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Post by roadkill on Jan 20, 2017 1:12:02 GMT
02-18-2016, 07:16 AM
this day is quickly drawing to a close and as i slow my mind to seek rest...i see the frames flipping past...as i focus i begin to smell the sweet fragrance of maple syrup...following the scent a find myself in an old encampment of my ancestors...there are many women and children going about their daily routines...a simple life really where my people roam freely...no worries about money or food as there is plenty of wildlife...moose deer and buffalo are in abundance...as well as the winged...ducks geese turkey grouse...there in the sky...high above the camp is an eagle screaming her messages to my people...there are a few soft white cotton ball like clouds that resemble faces i once knew but their names escape me...as i enter into the camp...i am greeted by many friendly dogs that have never known a collar or a chain..i am welcomed by the Chief and he invites me into his tepee..he then lights the pipe and hands it to me to partake in the smoking of tobacco...he offers up a prayer and then begins to talk..he tells me of a time long before the white trappers had discovered them...a time when fish could be caught using their hands and the beaver provided water to the dry areas..he explains to me that these times are to be never forgotten and that Mother Earth will one day relinquish all she has and there will no more be for her to provide our people with..these days will be sad days..and all ways of life will be gone...but all will not be forever destroyed...there will come one that will restore everything you are seeing here...never forget my child this wisdom...what once was will be again...but you must have and keep faith in your heart...treat everyone as an equal...we are all born from the one Creator...in His eyes we are all one family...and with those last words spoken i find myself alone...in the darkness of my room with my soul at peace and my mind at rest
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Post by roadkill on Jan 20, 2017 1:12:13 GMT
02-19-2016, 06:08 AM
tonight as i slow my mind...i close my eyes and see the many frame flashing before me...as i begin to slow them down i see myself standing at the rivers edge..i hear the sound of the water as it moves over the rocks..the small waves touching the shore at my feet and rolling back into the main channel...it is a soothing sound...i look up into the vast heavens and see a multitude of stars...twinkling like small diamonds...i see a full moon beginning it ascent to where it it will stay until over taken by the rising of the sun's awakening...i hear the wolves once again as they sing their song to one another...a warm breeze softly caresses my face..bring with it that fresh scent of spring...i feel so engulfed by the beauty that surrounds me...i begin to feel a calm rush over me and my eyes become heavy and my mind slows to where it will rest it that realm known as sleep
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Post by roadkill on Jan 20, 2017 1:12:26 GMT
02-20-2016, 07:30 AM
tonight as i slow down my mind it is easier tonight to focus..i have my daughter and the twins with me...they visited me today and decided to stay the night...they are finally all in bed ...i am headed there myself...it was a great day and filled with laughter...i love them so much...i could tell she was concerned for me as my friend has just passed...i didnt let on that i knew the main reason for the visit...she can be so motherly at times...but i really do enjoy being loved...good night all and may the colors of my world bring peace and happiness to you...hugs
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Post by roadkill on Jan 20, 2017 1:12:39 GMT
02-21-2016, 07:08 AM
tonight as i slow my mind....i close my eyes and see the frames flashing by...slowly they begin to pause briefly...then on stops and i begin to focus...i fell a cool breeze gently washing my face..the coolness caresses my skin..i can smell the smoke from a camp fire...igniting my curiosity as to where it is coming from...i look up into the heavens and i can see the plume of smoke rising from the distant valley...i begin to walk towards it and i notice that the moon is full but a pale yellow and not the usual bright white..yet still giving enough light to guide my journey..there are many stars in the dark vastness..each one twinkling at its own pace..like they each are hearing their own music and dancing to it...i am in awe of the wonder around me...i am surrounded by tall evergreens and hardwoods...each branch swaying as the cool wind passes through over them..i once more hear the wolf song as it echos through the hills and valley...i come to a small river that looks almost still...i have reached the valley where the fire's smoke was seen..i begin to hear a voice calling to me asking me if would sit and warm myself...listen for awhile..of course without thinking i oblige...i am handed a warm tea and fry bread...i sit on an old poplar log that has fallen across a patch of barren ground..sipping the tea the old man begins to speak...he ask what has brought me out on such a cool night...i reply..it is my way to find some serenity from the day..i always walk to slow my mind and thoughts...i find solace in these woods..he then looks at me and smiles..without a word he offers tobacco to the Creator and begins to pray...it is a language that i can not interpret,,,he then takes an eagle feather and cleanses my with the smoke...all the time praying...he then turns from me and disappears..alarmed but unafraid i finish my tea and fry bread..rise and start my journey home..i feel the presence of the wolf i heard earlier...walking along side of me yet i can not see him with my eyes..was that a protection prayer that the old man had prayed?..has the wolf come to guide and protect me from a force i can not see or have not encountered yet?...i guess only time will tell...my eyes begin to get heavy as a reach my home...i will once more find rest for my body and peace for my mind as i slip into that realm known as sleep
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Post by roadkill on Jan 20, 2017 1:12:56 GMT
02-24-2016, 10:28 PM
i have lost a few really close friends that knew more about me than most...with them a part of me went with each and everyone of them...i believe that when they left this world they took those parts with them...making me who i have become over the years...with each one gone...there has always been someone to fill the vacancy left in my soul...these new tenants bring a brighter existence and slowly replace the dark with the light...so the word friend is the main ingredient in any relationship..true friends will stick by you no matter how badly you screw up...and they will let you know when you have done or said something that irritates them or hurt them...they dont just walk away without a word or a reason why they cant stay...i understand sometimes people must choose a different path..but a true friend will always say why and with a hug travel their own way...carrying with them you in their memory
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Post by roadkill on Jan 20, 2017 1:13:12 GMT
02-25-2016, 06:19 AM
tonight as i close out another blessed day..filled with friends love and laughter...i close my eyes to once again see the frames flashing by..i begin to take deep breaths and exhale slowly while silently counting to 10..a frame stops and the motion trail catch up..the frame come into focus...i find myself high on top of mountain over looking the valley i just walked through...i can see all the things i left behind during my climb..i hear an eagle high above me...she screams her voice..in a high pitch...her wings are larger than any i have ever seen before..her white head feathers seem to glow...as if she were wearing a halo...what a majestic creature that Creator has gifted us with..as she glides along on the air currents...i can see her dark feathers sparkle..like tiny stars have been embedded into her soft angelic folds of her plumage...she has a message for me in her song..it is one of encouragement and pride...that she echos through the mountains..i have humbly won the fight i was fighting..then i feel a soft gentle hand on my shoulder..i turn and there stands a woman..dressed in traditional clothing and her light brown skin matches the deer hide dress she has on...the colorful bead work tells of her journeys...each cluster holds their own story...she looks my straight in my eyes and whispers..you fought a good fight..now rest awhile...and with those words spoken she brushes her palm over my face and my eyes get heavy..too heavy to keep open and my mind rests and my soul is refreshed..as she gently lays me down on the soft grass...i fall asleep
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Post by roadkill on Jan 20, 2017 1:13:25 GMT
02-26-2016, 05:51 AM
another day is coming to a close...it was a good day...i laughed...i smiled and yes even shed a tear or 2...so too me it was a good day..i wiped a slate clean...i came to an understanding of something that was bothering me..i was taught something new this day so tonight as i close my eyes and start to slow my mind..i see the images passing by...breathing deeply and slowly letting it out i am bringing in the new and pushing the old out...i begin to see a vast forest..with tall pines and mighty oaks...there are some maple and birch mixed in among the dense stand of natural beauty...i hear the songs of the wolves echoing in my ears...there is the chatter of squirrels and chipmunks as they scurry about collecting seeds and pine nuts for their winter cache...i look up and catch a glimpse of a lone eagle soaring high in the days sky..the path i walk is the Red Path..always looking for guidance in my actions..i find an old blow down and i sit...taking in the beauty surrounding me...the sky begins to darken and i can see the yellows and violets reds and oranges taking over the blue that earlier was dominate..once again it is like the Creator has taken his brush of many colors and stroked it on His canvas...the sun sneaks into its place of sleep as i watch in wonder of how quickly life..my life can change...my eyes heavy now and my mind at peace..my body longing for rest..i fall into that other realm known as sleep
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Post by roadkill on Jan 20, 2017 1:13:46 GMT
02-28-2016, 02:40 AM
tonight as i slow my mind and focus on the pictures as they flash by..i begin to focus on one that continues to repeat itself over and over again...i see a full moon shining behind the soft clouds that appear like lace...this creates a design in them as the moon's light passes through...i see the silhouette of an eagle as she rides the warm air currents gracefully...i see many stars flickering..each seems to have its own color...white some blue some green and some yellow...i can see the ancestors that have long ago passed..beating the drums and i hear their cry's...the wolves begin to join in with their songs...i feel a warm rush of wind wash over me..i can smell the sage and sweet grass as it is burned...the smoke washes me...as i continue to be cleansed i see an old camp where many go about their daily chores....the women are cooking over the fires..children of all ages play and the men are preparing a buffalo hunt..all are free and without care...as i look on... my eyes become heavy and begin to close..i give thanks to the Creator for another blessed day and for the gift of friends....i ask He watch over them all and let them feel his love as i do..i soon will be in that other realm...where my mind slows and my body rests
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Post by roadkill on Jan 20, 2017 1:14:16 GMT
02-29-2016, 04:18 AM
tonight as i slow my mind....it has been a very trying day for me...memories of my dad and my mom and all the friends that have gone on...i remember the good and not so good times...how each had walked their own paths through this life and how they crossed with mine...as i walk the Red Path....i am reminded of a song that expresses how much i miss them
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Post by roadkill on Jan 20, 2017 1:14:29 GMT
03-01-2016, 07:17 AM
tonight as i slow my mind and begin to close out another day..i focus on the frames as they hurriedly pass by..i begin to see a forest rich with wildlife...i sit on an old blow down near a crystal clear lake...as i gaze out on the horizon i see the sun settling into it's place of sleep...throwing it last rays skyward creating vibrant colors of red orange yellow blue indigo and violet..onto the darkening clouds....high above i see the eagle soaring in circles searching for her last meal of the day..a doe and her fawn wander out from the tree line down to the lake for a fresh drink of glacier water..i see a cow moose with her calf feeding knee deep in the lily pads...i hear the splash of the fish as they surface to feed on the insects that have given themselves to nourish the water dwellers...a lone bullfrog croaks out from the near bay...as the sun sets..and the moon begins to rise...i hear the songs of the wolves as they howl from the mountain top..with Creator's orchestra singing to me i find me eyes heavy and my body relaxing...soon so will my mind find rest...i will drift off to that other realm known as sleep
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Post by roadkill on Jan 20, 2017 1:14:42 GMT
03-02-2016, 06:03 AM
tonight as i try to slow my mind...i see the piks flashing by...i focus..as one stops and begins to come into focus..i see a small dirt path...i begin to walk along its narrow way,,,surrounded by tall pines...i feel a warm summer breeze washing gently across my face...the smell of apple blossoms gently tickle my nose...as i take a deep breath and my head tilts skyward..i open my eyes and see the eagle perched high in the tallest pine...she looks down at me and our eyes meet...she rustles her feathers and lets me know she is there..as i continue the walk.. she follows me flying from tree to tree..i stop and look at her..wondering why she is following me...she shakes her head and lets out a shrill...my eyes turn to the way ahead..there in the middle of the path stands a wolf...looking into my soul...as i walk closer this wolf lets out a mournful howl..the closer i get to this magnificent creature..his body language changes and becomes more aggressive...unafraid i find an old stump and i sit down...rubbing my eyes to see if what i am seeing is real..he starts to walk towards me with a wagging tail..he gets within a few feet of me and begins to belly walk..like a scolded dog...i reach into my shirt pocket and find a piece of dried meat...i show this to the wolf and he gently takes it from my outstretched hand..i stand and he licks my fingers from where the meat once was..i go to start my walk and again he snarls with a disapproving snarl..i realize then that this is as far as i go on this night..my time to reach the clearing see where this dirt path leads is not for e to know at this time..i sit on the old stump..wolf and i together..he licking my hand as my other hand pats his head..eyes are heavy now and my body tired..i know i will find my mind at rest shortly and i will be in that other realm
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Post by roadkill on Jan 20, 2017 1:14:56 GMT
03-03-2016, 06:45 AM
as another day has gone by so fast and i slow my mind..i see once more i am sitting with the wolf on that stump...i feel a warm wind brush through my hair and wash around my face...i smell the sweet fragrance of the apple blossoms as they dance with the breeze...suddenly the wolf stands..ears alert and gazing down that narrow dirt road..he turns and looks into my eyes...his jaws open and gently takes my hand in his mouth..i stand and he begins to lead me to the entrance of the clearing..although he has released my hand he stays by my side as i exit the dense forest and enter the large clearing..there i see a large lake in the distance...so wide and long i can not see the shores..the large waves hurdling to the rocks i am standing on..as they break over the round boulders i get splashed by the over-spray causing me to gasp from the shock of the icy cold water...the lake is too big to walk around and the water too cold to swim..not knowing the distance to the far shore i ponder my situation...i look to the wolf and he sits looking for more dried meat...i turn and find a dry rock to sit on to think...i reach into my pocket and pull out a chunk of meat..tearing it in half i give one half to the wolf and i put the other half in my mouth....savoring the nourishment..the wolf lies down and goes to sleep after his snack...the sun is beginning to set so i find wood to start a fire for warmth and to boil tea...(to be continued)
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Post by roadkill on Jan 20, 2017 1:16:43 GMT
03-04-2016, 01:36 AM
with the fire roaring and the tea boiling..i pour myself a cup and and walk to the water's edge...the wolf by my side..i look out to the horizon where the dark waters seem to go on forever..the wolf wades into the icy cold and begins to quench his thirst...only after his thirst has been taken care of does he return to my side and shakes off the excess water..throwing droplets onto my face...i smile and the wolf begins to play...running in a circle around me begging me to give chase...i bend down and pick up a stick and trow it as far as i can into the bush..he runs off swiftly and with speed i have never seen before..he returns with the stick and drops it quickly gazing out to the lake..i turn to see what he is looking at..and there on the waves i see a canoe drifting towards me...as it gets close enough to grab i take hold of it and bring it ashore..now i know it is too dark to travel as there is no moon or stars to give light..so wolf and i settle in for the night and will see what the new day brings(to be continued)
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